Write For Me

“Go home and write for me.”

God said those words to me today as I was walking to my car, deep in debate with myself over whether or not I would go to a small group that wasn’t quite sitting right with my soul for several reasons. I asked God if it was okay for me to stay home. I’m working to be more open to opportunities, to community, and this was an opportunity for community. I kept asking myself if I was wavering because it didn’t feel good in my soul, or if I was wavering because I was nervous about putting myself into a new situation. 

“Go home and write for me.” 

So here I am, at home, writing for God. 

I have no idea what I’m supposed to write here, just that I’m doing as I was asked. Obedience. Following through. Showing up in a small way when I could have just as easily kept working on my manuscript or settled in to read for the night. I’m a little late to the party – it’s 10:49 pm as I write this – but I’m doing as God asked. 

It reminds me of a story Hannah Billingsley told on her Instagram stories a while back. Hannah is married to Shay Mooney of Dan + Shay and really walks in her faith. She also has a great podcast and like me, has somewhat recently leaned into spiritual giftings. She likes to listen to worship music and pray while she walks around her neighborhood and one day, she said she walked past a can that had been tossed on the side of the road. She heard God say “pick up that can.” 

She didn’t. 

She kept walking. “Pick up a dirty can?” she thought. “Why would I do that? It’s dirty and I’d have to carry it all the way home.” Yet the thought nagged at her and so she finally grumbled and turned back to pick up the can. As she walked home, can in hand, she heard God’s lesson. He asked her to do a small thing and she obeyed. She practiced obedience. Obedience in the small things – like picking up a can or writing for God – helps prepare you for obedience in the big things. 

I’m not sure where I’m going with this. I’m writing as requested and thinking a bit about how this aligns with my prayers this week. I’ve been working on praying boldly and not putting God in a box and one of the things I’ve been praying on in this vein is how He will use me and my words. There is a hum of something just below the surface, an idea or a revelation or something, that’s just hanging out, waiting for the right time to break through. I can feel it. 

So I’m writing. 

I’m listening. 

I’m praying. 

I’m asking God to use me.  

I’m asking Jesus to do something so big in my life that there will be no doubt that it’s him. I’m practicing obedience through writing this, ready to act when a bigger call comes. 

Thank you, God. 

Amen.